Thursday, 30 June 2011

Facing disappointment

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A couple of weeks ago I stepped out of my comfort zone and reached out for something that I wanted.

I found out yesterday that my dream will not become my reality.

At first I suffered a moment of intense disappointment. I wished so badly that things could be different. I wished so badly that my fate was not in the hands of someone else. I wished so badly to be given the chance that I thought I deserved.

I ranted a little. I huffed a little. And then I breathed. 

Closure. Maybe even a smidge of relief when I really looked out for it.

Things happen for a reason don't they? I scrolled through my mind searching for a possible reason for this. I looked for good things about not reaching my dream, at this point in my life. Maintaining the status quo. I observed my fear of failure float away.

Things happen for a reason don't they? Life's pathway is rarely straight or smooth. Bumps. Slips. Swings and roundabouts.

Status quo. 

Nothing wrong with that right?

16 comments:

therhythmmethod said...

I agree, things do happen for a reason (like when 2 turned into 4, or in my case, 2 turned into 3). Maybe your success lies elsewhere?
Sorry for your disappointment. I still think you're super woman. Maybe you'll just be flying low for a little while longer. x

Cathy said...

Sorry you didn't get the thing you were after, but I'm a firm believr in things happening for a reason - even the horrible things (but perhaps that's because I'm the glass half-full type person). The reason might not be apparent to you for a long time. Hang in there.

A Farmer's Wife said...

I often think things happen for a reason and you wind up where you are meant to be.

The other important thing is that at least you tried - it sounds like even the act of thinking about this and trying took you out of your comfort zone. That's got to be worth something.

Life In A Pink Fibro said...

Not a thing. Take it from me.... So sorry it didn't work out. But it does happen for a reason. It will come again when you have more room in your life to really make it happen.

Anonymous said...

Yep, things definitly happen for a reason - maybe the thing you were after wasn't going to be what you thought and it was fate saving you from a bad move. Maybe it's fate saying "You need to stick with what you know and not make any changes at the moment". And maybe it's making way for something bigger and better just around the corner. I feel it just wasn't right for you. Next time. Kath xx

Diminishing Lucy said...

There is not a comment box in the blogasphere large enough for me to tell you how much I believe in the "things happen (or don't happen) for a reason".

I'm sorry you didn't get the opportunity. But the status quo needs you a while longer, so a reason. xx

MandyE (Twin Trials and Triumphs) said...

Nothing wrong with bumps, slips, swings, and roundabouts...but I hope you don't equate that with "status quo".

Whatever may have happened, maybe it will allow you to look at things in a new way, gain some new perspective. And in the meantime, sit back and enjoy the familiar...I know it's full of lots of good stuff. :) :)

alliecat said...

You are right, perhaps this wasn't right for you, at this time at least. I think you have done very well to deal with the disappointment and get to this level of acceptance so quickly, well done!

DancingInTheRain said...

Bummer. Yes, all for a reason.

Jen said...

Shame things didn't work out the way you wanted. I think that there will always be other opportunities in the future, it might not be exactly the same type of thing but ultimately there is often another chance to reach out for something just around the corner. In the meantime you just get back up and keep walking until that happens

Alice Becomes said...

Love your attitude on this...Now that's why you are superwoman, yes? I completely believe that things happen or a reason. Gill xo

Miss Pink said...

I'm not a fan of the "everything happens for a reason" approach. Sometimes misfortune just happens no matter how hard you fight and there is nothing worse than being told "everything happens for a reason" in those situations when you think "But I tried so hard, I did everything right! So I just don't deserve it?" (you know things like TTC problems, death, long term illnesses etc.)
But I do agree with sometimes we feel such a strong push to have to do x, y and z and it is sometimes nice to have one of those tasks taken from us, giving us more time to make better quality of the other things in our lives.

Mama of 2 boys said...

Oh lovely, I feel your disappointment. It's funny, but your post has a similar vein to my post today... ie. feeling dejected. It is so hard when a dream does not come to fruition... even harder when it is at the hand's of someone else.
Keep dreaming, it's what I do and sometimes the dream comes true, just in a different format xo

Quill and Ink Handmade said...

So sorry, MM x

But it doesn't mean that it'll never happen, right? Don't give up! And maybe this 'no' will lead to a 'yes' on a completely different path...

x

Megan Blandford said...

Yep, things happen for a reason - it's just bloody hard to see that reason when you're right in the middle of disappointment. xx

Salamander said...

You must be inside my head! I just wrote about the exact same thing...I'm jsut a few days behind in my bloggy reading. I hope you've found your equilibrium again xxx

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